Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Wishes

Next month , 04 Jan 2013,  is my dad operation.  I would not be here with my dad only my second sis and my mum would be there .

Next month my sch is start , I can't accompany my dad here. I would study hard and wish my dad all the best. Don't happened something bad, PLS! I would wish next month good luck coming and bad luck going off.


I don't want be like this year 2012 all is bad luck for me.
Wish my dad operation successful .
Mum and dad healthy forever.
And...
Wish myself faster finish my study at PJ in 2 year after if successful .So no need live with my eldest sis .
After 2 year later, I would be happiness more in my life that why what i think right now.

How I feel

How long I didn't create & write about my story?I always study and study , don't even have time to post any new story of me.这次我利用我的one month of sch holiday来写我的心情伤感故事。不久前,我二姐带我爸去看医生。他们去了很多不同的医院,他们一整天在医院都很累等了又等。 Finally, is their turn . But..第三天要去见医生。okay. 过了一天又一天啦。那天就是陪爸爸去pantai hospital . 爸爸心里很紧张,那么我二姐就逗他开心。其实我爸是有病可是他的病是遗传的,那就是心脏塞(coronary disease).其实我爸知道自己有病,然后再看医生,他想确认心脏里面有多少branch。那天我们都在医院一整天了,看到爸爸很放松。我们聊天个不停地。那时候医生来探望我爸,说暂时不可以吃喝因为要清除身体里面的器官才可以照x-ray.到了3点过后,我们就一直等在rest room也想知道爸爸心脏里面有多少根。过后,结果医生一直解释好让我们明白所有一切。但是..doctor said 爸爸心脏里面有4根。其中一部分是很危险的,所以要开刀。doctor said"你们要好好商量,不要那么紧张要开刀。因为我知道钱的方面是你们付不起的,如果你们要换另个医院,可以写信给你还有report你们带去别间hospital." After, my dad came from the operation room and stay in his room. In that moment, I saw my dad's eye is red. I heard my sis said dad is crying . I knew my dad heard a bad news from doctor . Then; I control myself do not cry out because my dad would know I'm tear out in front of him. My dad told us , actually he hopefully none everything of his heart got . But no choice .How? 其实我心情很复杂不知该如何说。我是家中最小还在读书,而且这个时候是我爸妈应该退休不用在工作」 可是
他们还要供我读书,没办法他们还要做3年的工。 我就开始责怪自己,不应该花了他们辛苦所earn money to pay my sch fees.某人也有错的责任。

After one week, my eldest sis asked me do I want to travel with them, and I said: "no, I'm not in the mood to go travel . 我大姐明知道我爸有病在身还好意思去哪里玩。 所以这次我留下这里陪爸爸度过每一天每一日。趁我这个假期我会照顾我爸的。